promises ‘evergreen’, track eleven: helicon (feat. Timothy Owen Hyde):
My friend, I wanted to write this when I was feeling honest and I had a stable hand to scribe the words that I needed to reach you. To tell you the truth, I’ve been lying a lot and my hands, they shake like I never knew. I can’t stop thinking about what it meant to me before it was taken away. I can’t fix anything: fists and words are useless when you’re drowning in the rain. Stupid me, looking up – instead of rolling off my back it pooled in the back of my throat and I’ve been choking on it ever since. I’ve set myself on fire but I won’t burn. I set all my joy free and it won’t return. Everything has changed and I wasn’t ready for it to be anything but what it was. So what the fuck can I do now I don’t care about anything anymore? Make me whole. I want to let you know that I was evergreen – the days would pass and I would stay the fucking same. No event could break my steady hand, and I want to be that man again. My greatest fears I fear are still yet to be seen. I’ll tear apart my enemies but I’ll do the same to me.